Slow down baby...

Let me tell you about the quickest 7 months of my life! I don’t know where exactly the time went because I can’t even fathom that 7 months, 213 days, 5,110 hours have gone by since the doctors placed this beautiful baby girl in my arms. I honestly feel like we just came home last week and we all are getting adjusted. Who am I kidding, we are all still adjusting. There's always adjustments to be made.

Maddie James is the final baby to this Leiser crew and I couldn’t have dreamed up a happier, sweeter, easy going, loving baby in the whole wide world. She makes everything seem right in the craziness of the days. So we’re 7 months in and the milestones are coming and each one hits me like a pound of bricks. It’s like I’m excited, but I am soooooooooo entirely sad. This is the last baby and I need her to stay a baby. With each new thing that she does, I feel that baby slipping away.

It started with rolling over. Of course I wanted her to learn to roll, but I was in no means at all in a hurry for her to do so. I had no problem lying on the floor with her to do tummy time and singing silly songs as I took note of EVERY single feature of her little face. Of course, others were in such a hurry for her to do these things, but they will never see it through a my eyes and feel it through my heart.

Next came the real food and real diapers. Seriously, lets go back to breastmilk diapers kid! I see her hair getting darker and filling in. I see her hands and feet growing and the strength that this little person has is amazing. This weekend I turned around and there she was sitting up and looking at me with that ridiculously amazing smile! Once, I started breathing again and the shock wore off, I smiled with her, but inside I was an emotional mess. I mean a complete disaster! Slow down Maddie....Mommy needs you to slow down.

There are moments that are indescribable to a mom that are over for me now and it hurts. It really, really hurts. There is nothing quite like watching the last baby grow and taking a deeper look at your older two and seeing just how much older and changed they have become. I know that our family is complete and my body told me to chill out during this last pregnancy, but I miss my baby that is actually still a baby. Whew, my therapist is going to have a blast with me this week lol.

So if you let me hold your baby and I sniff the top of your kid’s head, please don’t call the police on me. Give me a hug and remind me that my girls will always be my babies. If I seem to be stingy with my baby, deal with it. I want to soak in every little bit of this baby phase and I have every right to do so.

Well, I have to go find my tissues and my husband who just gets me and understands...He also gives great big hugs and tells me everything is going to be alright.

This blog was brought to you by: The Hershey's Chocolate Bar that I hid in the butter compartment